Chapter 7

It is long since I wrote. This naturally has its reasons. My father became ill and passed away during the fall of the cruel disease cancer. All projects are stopped. I stopped by. Yesterday it was 12 weeks ago he finally got to sleep from the pain. I miss him every day and I get approached me slowly, insight, and how much it takes to understand that he is no more.

Disappointment and anger at what his other family did have folded- it become a bit nasty around the funural which I couldn´t go to because of choises they made which was devistating first. I myself got a hefty "punch in the face" to understand that I was NOT family to them. To understand that my halfsisters never wanted or counted me as a sister, it was just grateful to have me to complain about, take out disappointment on and anger. Time after time I have tried talking to them before I gave up. They are has just too old now to "nagged" on.

So I drop them. I do not have time and energy, but above all do not want to be on hand during the dietary conditions.

Today the State, I have begun at me on my feet again. I pause sometimes to feel God's presence or be swept away in the universe's energies so that we work the right direction. I know now how to be successful, now I'll just put it into practice.

I lose weight, not because I do not eat, but because I suffered a kind of restless energy that drives me out on long walks with the dog, I choose to walk more than taking the bus. But yes, I have no appetite, and sometimes I eat solid food does not taste anything in the mouth just feels stale, but I need the fuel. Sleep comes and goes and I have just returned from a prolonged fever week which allowed me to choose a slower pace - go walking I do, anyway. One can go slowly as well.

Have a nice day

Chapter 6

I'm alive and well. I feel that I am in the pupate stage. Some things take time to sort out, to grow, to know. Knowledge is not always about things we learn from but also what comes from within.

God whispers have grown stronger. But I can´t hear it all well yet so I still practise to do that- to hear them at 100%!. It´s a wonderful, exciting and a little horror mixed delightful feeling. As life itself.

Chapter 5

I'm looking in my mind to hear God's whispers. What is my calling? What can I do to the world? What do I love myself to do that simultaneously brings the real joy of helping others? Because I love to make others feel good. Yesterday I got the e-mails from Oprah. I have registered to receive newsletters from her new Oprah's Life Class. I have been with her ​​for many years and really want to continue to follow her for her show has many times opened the locks in me. Grateful forever about this. Must eat. Feeling shaky and tired, sleeping too long and went to sleep late. Not good at all. Now I get it to bed early tonight. See you soon.

Chapter 4

It is amazing the way people can disbehave without having the right to do it. Got me a dose of acidity of a student at my daughter's school that is completely unjustified. I just kept the same friendly tone but I know that it was the last time I was nice to this person- it´s not a young kid- this one is old enough to know that he/she is rude. It has been going on for a while now and as an adult it is one of my responsibilities to stop this kind of bad behave and teach that student to back off. I know what caused it but I can not write it here without disclosing the student which is not in my interest to do so.

For me it is sufficient to know the cause, see the other's act and act yourself.

I actully put this in the back of my head until tomorrow or next time I meet this stundent. Is it one thing I learned during this trip is it to not let "energuthieves" take place. Off you go now - shoo shoo.

I rest in the knowledge of my breakthrough and wear it as a great, light, soft blanket around me. Last time I felt  this free and happy for real  is about 13 years ago. There is nothing forced about it, I don´t feel exhausted by the state-reverse I feel strong and calm, and in fact often full of laughter - life is so good. However, I must be careful not to fall back into bad habits. Each situation outside the home requires the attention and a quick action of stopping it. You will get an example: Today I found myself sitting on our daughter's school. I was waiting for her to stop and without thinking did I taken in everyone's presence, which quickly becomes cumbersome. I noticed it because I discovered that I sank more and more in an attempt to create a kind of physical protection. As soon as I noticed what was going on I straightened up and my enegri generated externally. And instantly I was free again. I use to imagen a unvisibly wire that are attached at the top of my head drawing me up against the sky.

My physical and mental sphere is currently quite small, which is a decision I made ​​consciously while I feel like a part of the great world which is great. Now I'll help daughter with homework and the meditate atwhile before I start my research and writing for articles.

Take care.

Chapter 3

Today it has been a perfect autumn day. I read Haruki Marakamis latest book where he shares about his life as a marathoner. On my way to the bus I thought fascinated that I was cold on the hands while

Chapter 2

Images: Yoga guru guide

That only a single goal so far does not mean it is a little bit. From there I came from, it is damn good! Starts tomorrow. Longs indeed. I have a strong training background of basketball games, yoga, horse riding, squash, dance and strength training and loves to exercise. And I will of course have a really good company of the dog.

continuation of Chapter One

I think many can compare what I do on these occasions as praying or meditating. It is intended simply to something higher and ask for guidance. I knew after my "meditationsprayer" immediately
what I needed to do to help our daughter and

Chapter One

I slept around the clock since last Thursday. Before then, I have not slept even four hours a night for 1 ½ month.
What triggered it?

I have been unemployed for almost 2 ½ years and

Testing Testing

It is the middle of the night and I feel like crying and impatient as a two years old it becomes a test post to make the layout.